Happy 2026!

I am not sure about y’all but 2025 really came and did a number on me.

It felt like everything that could fuck up did, at some point or another.

The blessing of it all was that I realized that I had actually been depressed for quite some time. I am not talking weeks or months but actual years. It took me going through these really difficult things on my own to have this “ah ha” moment.

What was that moment?

It was me realizing that I have always wanted someone to save me. I had to reflect and realize that through all of my storms, I hoped for someone to come in and help me lift whatever was burdening me and when help never arrived, I would be sad and hurt. Like I was forgotten by everyone. But that wasn’t even my reality. I am surrounded by community and ppl who love me. I was looking for help from ppl I know wouldn’t spit on me if I was on fire even tho they were holding the extinguisher.

I was looking for me in other ppl.

Now that I have doing “me” in myself, I feel lighter. Like I just found a the center piece to bring “it” all together.

I don’t know if it took me turning 40 or what but a bitch is really in her “not here for your bullshit” era.